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Story

Trying to find the perfect match between pretentious and pop. Feeding ducks and thinking too much, daisies and journals and fountain pens with dark blue ink that smudges when you aren't too careful. Mixtapes that took far too long to make.

Movie scene Tuesday, July 04, 2006 |

Movie scene:
     The night soaks away outside, and the quivers and booms of the fireworks outside can be felt, even inside snug homes. It’s the Fourth of July, but inside, nothing gives it away. The house is silent, except for the tap, tap, tapping of the keyboards. The living room looks like an abandoned set. Two feeble lamps scattered in opposite corners of the room light up the otherwise shadowed room. The air is frozen,, the world has stopped, and everything looks as if it should be moving. Darting, jumping, ready to act. With these invisible movers, the ghosts of the real people, the people that should have lived here.
     The tap tap tapping of the keyboards is a shadow of something far away. Tap tap tap dancing of a band, maybe. Tap tap tapping of clapping crowds, maybe. Either way, the night is long, the air is warm, not unpleasant, but stuffy. This girl, she sits in front of the glowing computer screen, not even glancing at the window, opened with words and lines. She’s staring at the shelf next to the computer. These weird toys, office supplies, a DVD player, blank CD’s tucked tight in its case, overturned on its side on the floor. It’s a Tuesday, but it really feels like a dark and frozen Saturday night. Never mind the rest of the world. Here, it’s just her, the music that flows through her earphones, and these words.
     The Lucksmiths are singing. The vocals so genuine, so homely, that it might as well have been playing next door. The swiping guitars, melodies that carried the sort of vague pop sadness, seemingly hatched just for her. Just for this.
     And the words are what pours out, as the music and the thoughts of a stray night pours in. The words, those dancing, flickering beasts or beauties. Angelic little devices that serve no purpose. Or did they? Did it matter?
     The silence edges and attacks from outside, but the earphones are secure, her eyes are still straying, glancing, searching, but not looking at anything, really. Just something to do while her fingers tap tap tapped away. Something in the air is promting her to write on. The words slipping out, without direction.
     Everything is a distraction. Nothing distracts her. And then each second, the tap tap tapping goes by, the more worthless her thoughts seems to become. Wisps of smoke and fog and mirrors inside mirrors, a hallway of mystery and disbelief.

Saturday, July 01, 2006 |

I think I've come to the conclusion that blogging is a wonderful thing, and while I still adore writing about books and music to pieces, I also have come to the conclusion that keeping a personal blog will be fun. When I say "personal blog", I really mean all the stuff that wouldn't fit with ym other blogs--i.e., my writings, musings, and new, amazing design/toys/fun/cute discoveries.

So this blog is now officially born. I'm not sure if I can actually keep up with it, since I tend to be rather bad at things like that unless there's something pushing me, like readers, but what the hell. As of the this moment, I have five blogs. I still consider The Bubble Death my main one, but this one is really like what my NaNoWriMo blog would be if I updated it when it isn't NaNoWriMo time. The Scene Hurts is really just a bit of fun to let out my inner scenester--complete with eye liner and headbands and bad taste in music, and probably my favorite project blog that I'm not going to post is my last one. That one is updated the least, yet is often the most fun. It's fictional, though. So that makes things a little different.

Anyway, it's Saturday, things are looking perky. I shall sign off at the moment and continue to make this blog super pretty.

Hello. |

Obligatory test first post.